Controlling Emotions

Controlling Emotions

Sometimes, it becomes inevitable but very difficult to control your emotions. I still don’t know, how I’m holding myself back. I was asked to shift my belongings for the fourth time in last three months. Earlier, I thought “Oh! They are providing for my accommodation for free in the foreign land, that’s enough. I’m obliged to assist them.” But today my limit of patience was crossed. How much can one endure?

I got late in obtaining my visa this time and hence my stay in India increased from ten days to two weeks. I was so afraid and regretful. I thought, “They are paying me and treating me just like their employees. This shouldn’t have happened.” Then my father told me to quit worrying coz that was a thing not in my hands. And now those emotions are completely gone!

But I’m a person who won’t say anything. I told my mentor though that this is not fair. But this time, it is for my company only. I had thought in my head, I’ll say this and that but I still couldn’t say anything. When I was told later that I have to shift today itself, I just broke down. Thank God, I was at the room provided to me as abode. I cried for half an hour, this time loudly. At what? At my nature. Why can’t I say anything? If there had been any other person, would have they complied this easily?

I have come to realize, people like me are made use of like that only. If we can’t stand for ourselves, we have to face the consequences. Although, I have known the fact from long before, I still can’t do anything about it. Because people like me think that if I am good to others, others should be too. I always forget that this is what my parents taught me and the world has taken 180 deg turn in the years.

One thing I’m worried about the most is, how I will convince my parents this time. Last time I said the same thing about being thankful and what not. At first they were furious, but then my father accepted it and I was satisfied. This time, they are going to be very upset and one thing I can’t bear is seeing them sad, especially because of others. I just pray for the strength to tell them.

In the end, I can only be angry at myself and my helplessness.

Today’s song – 

Although not related this time. Somehow earlier songs fitted with the situations well……..

Manga Reco: Love So Life

Manga Reco: Love So Life

Yeah, yeah. It’s been two days after I said I would write frequently. And now I’m running away from it by telling this sort of thing? Oh no no. This is the manga review I’ve been planning for long. I had just forgotten about this heart warming manga by Kouichi Kaede. A recent release of it’s chapter revived all the memories.

So this manga follows the story of an orphan high school girl, Shiharu who suddenly gets involved with two cute twins and their guardian, Sei (I hope this is the right name but since the children call the guy by this name I’ll write this only). The twins Aoi and Akane have already lost their mother and their father left them with his younger brother Sei and ran away. Sei, a TV presenter by profession, is a handsome unmarried guy who, initially faces a lot of difficulty maintaining the balance between the new members in his life and his job but ultimately develops necessary love and affection for them to be able to handle his now messed up life. On the other hand, the unfriendly twins find solace in Shiharu’s care for them at the day care centre and Shiharu lands up daily babysitting job for the children. Now she is helping the babies to learn things to stand up in the society and she is growing with them too. Also, she is developing feelings for Sei. From romance point of view, this manga is still in development stage even after 62 chapters but the love element between Sei and Shiharu has been introduced much later (although in such scenarios, it is kind of obvious that they will fall in love with each other in the end).

There are many other involvements including the twins’ grandparents on their mother side who want to take care of them and are quite persisting in this regard even after Sei’s refusal. There is one another guy who likes Shiharu and their neighbor. Everyone is invloved with babies one way or other and they become the reason for their relationships with each other. All in all, it is a good manga and I’m soo looking forward to it’s anime if it is made anytime.

Still not convinced? This will give you A waaayyy big reason to read it –

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These swiggly wiggly little twins are soooo freaking adorable. I first read the manga just because I saw them.

Read here – http://www.mangahere.com/manga/love_so_life/

Enjoy!

15 Days, 3 Months, 20 Years

15 Days, 3 Months, 20 Years

Hello all,

How have you been? Got confused with the title? I was just summing up my life in and out of my country (physically 😛), nothing else.I reached India some two weeks ago after three months in Thailand. I have fallen in love with that country and my experience there. 20+ years in India and three months in Thailand feel soo….. different. Although, many a times I fail to notice that I’m in a foreign country. Everything is fast in Thailand, yet the pace of life is slow.

I’m not saying anything against India. It is the country in which I was born. How can I do that? Anyways, it is time to go back to Thailand and I am anticipating new adventures for the next two and half months. Thailand has given me a lot. I started taking Korean seriously. I’m already learning a lot in the company. And the most important, it gave me a direction. Now I know what I want to do and how I want to do. Earlier, I was very worried.

Also, these 15 days showed me a quick trailer of how my life is going to be when I come back to India in December for good. Ah! I’m going to miss everyone and everything a lot (you will surely find the same line in some random post after three months).

In the end, I would update you with what is currently going on in my life regarding my language learning and other stuff. I have been listening to random K-pop songs again. I did Korean for whole day yesterday and realized, the grammar is as tough as Hindi’s. A lot of things BUT a lot of similarities. So I’m kind of happy about it. I’m being asked to take a test which I don’t want to but nonetheless I will have to apply for it. I want to take another exam but for my parents, it is kind of secondary, so they are asking me to take both, but first one is mandatory (Sigh!). I have been trying various Korean-English and vice versa dictionary apps for the past few days with much disappointment. Because I want an offline dictionary so that even if I don’t have internet access (which happens sometimes), I may still check out the word meanings.

Sometime ago, I connected my social accounts with the blog and I forget to uncheck some of the boxes like for Facebook and LinkedIn, while sharing. Last time I forgot and they got shared. And I don’t know how many of my friends saw this. It’s good on one side but I would’ve been happy if they didn’t get to see through Facebook TT_TT .

Oh! I remembered, today Good Doctor’s next episode would have been released. I’m off to watch that! Which K-Dramas are you following?

PS – Since I am going back now, I will update the blog regularly (preferably on daily basis), so stay tuned!

Today’s song – 

So Fast!!

So Fast!!

I love it when people answer me as soon as possible. Right now I’m facing both the extremes. I have been waiting for an answer to one of my queries for quite sometime now and I don’t want to call the people. I check my mail several times everyday, if they have sent some reply, but in vain. For the first mail, they responded so fast that I thought, may be, we might be able to establish good relations with this company. And if that happens, it would be a great achievement for me as an intern. I’m seeing the whole matter after all. I even sent a reminder email but I don’t know if I am doing something wrong.

On the other hand, after I talked to 케쓰 yesterday, I finally sent the mail to PEGASUS society for my lessons. And I got the reply within hours! And yesterday night, I was added to the group, received all the files and now I have started doing my homework too! (And it indeed is interesting, I must add. I’m lovin’ it.)

Ah! That reminds me, I don’t have much time to complete my homework. I have got a big heap of work at the company. On the top of that, I have got a two days trip planned for the coming holiday on 12th August in Thailand. So much to do!!! And a lots of catching up! So less time!!

But truly, I’m very thankful that I could join the group of Korean Enthusiasts like me and I’m looking forward to learning a lot. Oh! And thank you 케쓰 for advising me, otherwise I would have remained in dilemma for the whole time 🙂

On the side note, I have been slacking in posting reviews and all since I’m finding myself really busy with work and dramas. And on holidays, we generally go out because I have received my insurance. Now I have to compensate for all those weekends when I couldn’t go out for sightseeing 😛

In the end, today’s song is – 

Society’s Expectations

Society’s Expectations

Queen Bee's avatarFalling Through Blunderland

Graduate from high school. Enroll into a four year program at an accredited college. Graduate College. Get a job offer. Find and marry a significant other. Make babies. Retire. Die. Our lives have become so structured. Society tells us if we don’t graduate from high school, we’re failures. Society tells us that if we don’t go to college, we’re failures. Society tells us if we don’t have a well-paying job and a successful career, we’re again failures. If we don’t follow our societal norms, we’re looked down upon. Why? Just because we’re not doing what everyone is doing? That’s some bullshit, if you ask me.

We go to high school. Take all the AP and honors classes possible. Participate in every single extra-curricular activity possible. Volunteer whenever we have a free weekend. Study our asses off for an exam (the ACT!) that apparently determines our level of intelligence and whether…

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K-drama Review: Musical High School Drama – Monstar

K-drama Review: Musical High School Drama – Monstar

I love high school teen dramas. May be because what happens there cannot happen in real school life (or may be it can but not here in India……at least did not happen when I was in high school…….don’t know about now)

Ok, so Monstar is about some teenagers, who try to repair the bonds with people around them, severed through time, due to one different situation or other, and find solace, through music and new found friendship (Phew! That was long!). The story basically goes like this – Yoon Seol Chan (Yong Jun Hyung) is part of an idol group Men In Black. Due to some rumors and a big scandal, the president of his company asks him to become an ideal student in his school in three months and then return back to the industry. Now everyday is a new challenge for him amidst his mad fangirls, his old friend, now a rival Jung Sun Woo and a new transfer student Min Se Yi (Ha Yeon Soo). Se Yi has come from New Zealand after having a fight with her mother. Now she is living with her homeroom teacher in her own house. Her father was a singer when alive and she has inherited great voice and guitar skills from him. Sun Woo (Kang Ha Neul) is their class president and plays cello in school orchestra, All in One. He has been classmate with Se Yi before she went to New Zealand.  Then there are other four students – a bully, a bullied, a delinquent and a diehard fan of Seol Chan, all of who have had difficult pasts. These seven students have to come together to perform for school due to some circumstances. Will they succeed in their performance regardless of their sad memories with each other and who will Se Yi end up with, that the end will tell.

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What I know is that the series has finished halfway through. Six episodes out of twelve have already aired. The first three episodes were good. The story was progressing fast. But now it has kind of come to a standstill. They haven’t even started practicing, when will they form a proper band? Irrespective of what I feel and what I hear (I mean read on the forums), I can’t wait for next episode. That chemistry between Se Yi and Sun Woo, that way in which Sun Woo makes fun of Seol Chan, that jealous face of Seol Chan, those serious jokes of innocent and totally clueless Se Yi which even I take seriously, those girl group  dances of the bullied guy, that awesome beat boxing of the bully guy, that one reactionless dialogue of the delinquent girl “Shut Up” and the fanfic that diehard fan writes in her mind, added with petty fights between teachers and the reactions of Seol Chan’s manager and president of his company, all just make you forget every lacking point about the series. The songs they have used, add cherry (or whatever you like on yours) to the cake.

And what do I get to learn from the series? Music has power to heal anything but that is already a world known fact and true for me too!

Here is the link for the drama – http://www.dramacrazy.net/korean-drama/monstar/

And here is the trailer – 

Frustrated! (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

Frustrated! (╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻

Yesterday, when my videos stopped working, I thought it was a move by my college due to sem end exams. Turns out, it is my laptop giving me problems. Flash player suddenly stops working! Wah! (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

Its like being alive without my soul (#×_×). I can’t watch any drama or music videos. Me, the one who  finds excuses such as “I’ll watch just (just) one episode after finishing this chapter (though it never stops at only one episode hehehe)” or “I have done a lot of work, now time to watch (where a lot of work refers to reading one page absent-mindedly)”,  just to watch one more episode of my favorite variety shows like Kiss the Radio, Intimate note, Strong heart etc. etc. (list is very very verrrry long!) or currently going on dramas like Gu Family Book (awesome show with Lee Seung Gi in there (≧∇≦)/), can’t watch anything.  (T_T) No shows for today and God knows for how many days! (TT_TT)

I have tried everything to fix it (and everything means everything but that’s another story). I have another exam tomorrow but I haven’t started preparation yet. Why? Because I was trying to find a solution to the problem. This is too much! I give up! (;´Д`)

So, I have been watching the MVs I have with me, downloaded, again and again. And this song makes me a little relieved of my frustration (Coz I can’t watch the video, I hope this is the right one.) That guitar and the guitarist and the slow motions……. (〜^∇^)〜

 

Oh! Another one. They are soooooo cute! (≧∇≦)