On Beauty and the Beast

On Beauty and the Beast

No no, this is not review of some movie or drama. This was something I wanted to publish when I was in Thailand but I couldn’t. I came across some article yesterday about plastic surgery and I remembered this post I had prepared long ago.

I never knew I would get to have a first hand experience of fad among girls to look more beautiful. Although many cultures influence Thailand including Japan, South Korea, China and India, I never thought they would be following some things to extreme level.

For me, Thailand’s culture is quite open (as against what I had read before going there). And by open, Indians generally mean clothes especially for girls. So whenever I bought the so called “short” clothes, I was always demanded an answer and I always had to assure them that I’d not wear them here in India.

Well, it was not that bad. I know it is gonna take time for Indian people especially elders, to fully open their mind and accept something like this which is totally opposite to our culture. I mean I showed my friends the clothes recently and they were awed, a reaction I was expecting totally opposite to my parents.

(That means although the thinking of girls in India is changing about the clothes, it is giving rise to crime against women on the other hand and hence parents of girls are sceptical about it. But I just don’t understand the mentality of guys there. Just clothes or a little lack of them I should say, make their brains go haywire eh? But that is totally going off-topic. I’m sure I’m gonna write on this in future for sure.)

Where was I by the way? Oh yes. So when I was there, I got to know that girls there are as crazy about good looks as we hear or read about in South Korea. I don’t give a shit about what you do with yourself. But I do get frustrated when it starts affecting your overall health. Plastic surgery gone wrong – you become a laughing stock. Whole lot of medicines – your body gets damaged. I didn’t know why the ladies there were facing so many health problems until I came to know it was due to their obsession for beauty.

Just recently I read an article by an English teacher in South Korea who, when told her very young students about inner beauty, was blankly stared at because they didn’t even know what inner beauty was. Well, it was unsurprising to me.

I just need to ask these people that ok, you want to look like someone else – more beautiful – I accept. But imagine a world where everyone looks the same. Ah! A person like me who already is weak in learning faces will go crazy (I already am, just by imagining it). What is the use? Who do you want to show? Your fellow guys? Ha! A person who can’t accept you whole as it is can never be a good friend let alone boyfriend (or girlfriend as a matter of fact).

I must say peer pressure is one of the major factor in going for such things. “Ah! She is so beautiful, I need to do better than her otherwise all the guys will see only her.” “Why don’t you, for once, just try it? You will need to go to salon some day or other.” The second one – I myself heard a lot, after which I had to give in and go to one last year. But those were nominal things like hair styling and all – normal things which girls in India generally start around 6-7 years before I started. I didn’t go before that because I never felt bad about myself. But my friends took me there and I still dread that painful eyebrow shaping thing.

Although I’m considered just average according to Indian society – I don’t have fair skin, I have a lot of dark circles, I don’t go for everyday treatments some girls generally go for and I don’t own beauty products like eyeliners, sunscreens and blah blah blah (Now I think about it I don’t even have a lip gloss!). Thus, I’m kind of, what you call it, backward in such knowledge (My 6 years younger sister knows more than me). But I do feel good about myself because I know I’m kind and honest. That is enough for me.

I again deviated from the topic. So what I’m trying to say is – go for beautification products, I’m not against it. Even if I’m , it’s not like people will stop using them. Who am I to tell people to stop what they do? Moreover, no girl cannot be using beauty products, otherwise she is considered a fool.

But my dear fellow human beings, you need to take care of your health. If you’re going for something which may go wrong and you may never get back what you already have, think twice. The ladies around me there had learnt the lesson already after going to hospitals for the same. If you’ve to spend money again on your fitness or the same procedure, don’t go for it. Just don’t. You need to love yourself and lessen comparing yourself with others. Because there is that one person in the world, who is going to be yours, no matter what you look like. So don’t worry and instead of spending money on beauty products, just keep your diet healthy, have lots of fruits, drink lots of water, do lots of exercise and have lots of sleep (who am I kidding?). That would benefit your face as well as your body.

I only wrote it because I felt strongly about it. My views are my own and no one else’s. So if they hurt you, that’s your problem. I’ll give rest to my rant here.

Today’s Song – It’s been long since I posted some song. Today, a Japanese song from OST of naruto – 

From Thailand to Pilani – Last thoughts on Thailand

From Thailand to Pilani – Last thoughts on Thailand

Hi all,

I am back to Pilani where my college BITS is situated because placement season has started here. I still am in love with the life I had for the past six months and it’s hard to adjust back here. Not to mention the chilling winters.

I know I said I would update on my several last trips in Thailand and I indeed had fun in mountains there. Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai are really cool places to visit. But I really didn’t get any time to even update my Erawan Waterfalls post after 4th level which I said I would update that very day.

So I’m here to reminisce about my last week in Thailand – 9th to 15th Dec and my recent life. I with my friends came back from Chiang Mai on 9th morning. Went straight to office and slept a little in the office itself. My friend had the leverage to take a leave so she did that.

10th was a holiday so I went to Bangkok all alone. But my fate, I had less money than I thought left with me so I had to come back earlier than I had planned. But I wanted to buy gifts for people. I could only buy chopsticks for some Japanese enthusiasts in my college. Damn! I should’ve asked for money on monday itself.

Rest four days went into last parties with everyone and farewells to us. Enjoyed a lot. Thais are really fun and caring as well as carefree people. I learnt a lot from those around me. They know how to enjoy life. Indians are a bit lacking in that. I was fearing if I would be able to reach India considering the protests going on but everything went on smoothly (except the excess luggage I had to pay for and then my worst experience at IGI International Airport, India but well, that’s not Thailand)

I would just say I had time of my life there and it’s the best thing that could happen to me in my college life. One must surely go to Thailand and enjoy life there. I generally don’t get attached to people or places but this experience really is unforgettable. I will rest my main post here for now. Many photos are to come in one-two days (Since I am jobless right now. Chemical companies, where are you? TT_TT) but I can’t promise anything either.

Side Story 1: I had prepared gifts for people there. I wanted to do more but since I got my stipend second last day, I had to go for old style wooden photo frames and company color printed photos. The people whom I gave them to did seem touched by the gifts and I got Korean chopsticks from one very dear couple as a return gift. Now I own the things directly from Japan and South Korea. Very happiieeee!!!!

My Korean Chopsticks
My Korean Chopsticks

Side Story 2: I had my first job interview yesterday. At least I was comfortable and did not shake in between. I would still say I am lacking in my technical knowledge and I really won’t deny that fact. If I had technical knowledge, I would’ve got better grades. But how do I tell people that I love learning by doing? Those textbooks don’t appeal to me, what attracts me are the real life equipments. Sigh!

Before everything else, I need to update my previous post. So much work >.<

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Above are some of the things which were kind of very amusing to me. India has variety of fruits but the fruits of Thailand are very different and tasty. And you can get the already cut and packed fruits very cheap. The best part, you can eat them coz they look hygienic.

About Christmas tree, yes I haven’t seen those big trees in India. You may find small ones and I don’t know the trend now but there, the Christmas spirit is much greater than here.

Food is really delicious too. At least I didn’t have to see people savoring them before me considering I am veg. They had veg food for me too 🙂 Ah! So hungry! Gotta go and grab something…..

Finally….

Finally….

Finally, the audit has ended. And I got a compensatory leave today because I had been working hard and even spent last sunday at office as I told in this post. So, I’m enjoying and I’ve slept for whole day till now.

In India, a 10 day festival called ‘Navratri’ has started. During this time, people worship different ‘avatars’ of Goddess Durga and young girls in real life. The diet becomes strict too – no onions, garlic etc. Many people keep fast ranging from one day to all nine days. The tenth day is celebrated as Dussehra.

But since I’m in Thailand, leave food for fast, I can’t have onionless food too. And thus I learn of one more compromising situation. Well I should be thankful that I’m at least getting Indian veg food.

But I’m happy that I can start with my studies now.

Today’s song –

After one of the workers at company told me she went to Big Bang’s concert yesterday, only this song is coming to my mind. I’m not a big Big Bang fan. I have never liked their songs but both the recent singles by GD and Seungri were catchy. Added them to my playlist.

Controlling Emotions

Controlling Emotions

Sometimes, it becomes inevitable but very difficult to control your emotions. I still don’t know, how I’m holding myself back. I was asked to shift my belongings for the fourth time in last three months. Earlier, I thought “Oh! They are providing for my accommodation for free in the foreign land, that’s enough. I’m obliged to assist them.” But today my limit of patience was crossed. How much can one endure?

I got late in obtaining my visa this time and hence my stay in India increased from ten days to two weeks. I was so afraid and regretful. I thought, “They are paying me and treating me just like their employees. This shouldn’t have happened.” Then my father told me to quit worrying coz that was a thing not in my hands. And now those emotions are completely gone!

But I’m a person who won’t say anything. I told my mentor though that this is not fair. But this time, it is for my company only. I had thought in my head, I’ll say this and that but I still couldn’t say anything. When I was told later that I have to shift today itself, I just broke down. Thank God, I was at the room provided to me as abode. I cried for half an hour, this time loudly. At what? At my nature. Why can’t I say anything? If there had been any other person, would have they complied this easily?

I have come to realize, people like me are made use of like that only. If we can’t stand for ourselves, we have to face the consequences. Although, I have known the fact from long before, I still can’t do anything about it. Because people like me think that if I am good to others, others should be too. I always forget that this is what my parents taught me and the world has taken 180 deg turn in the years.

One thing I’m worried about the most is, how I will convince my parents this time. Last time I said the same thing about being thankful and what not. At first they were furious, but then my father accepted it and I was satisfied. This time, they are going to be very upset and one thing I can’t bear is seeing them sad, especially because of others. I just pray for the strength to tell them.

In the end, I can only be angry at myself and my helplessness.

Today’s song – 

Although not related this time. Somehow earlier songs fitted with the situations well……..

When you are not put on a team you should’ve been on

When you are not put on a team you should’ve been on

Feels bad right? I thought so too when I came to know that the meeting was always going on when it seemed (or was made like that? Who knows?) the work was to start tomorrow. I so badly wanted to do that one project. But when the other person was establishing new connections with this new party, did I miss out anything which could’ve been beneficial for me in the future? May be or may be not?

Whereas, I did lose the potential new good connections, I did a lot of other things. So what did I do in the meantime? I made more connections in this company itself. And I learnt what I couldn’t see properly or things I couldn’t ask about during my induction, at the starting.

Connections

Oh! And I already have two big projects with me. You think I’m greedy? Certainly not. When you know, you are gaining, like, heaps of experience and it’ll look good on your resume, you don’t have to care (at least I don’t). I progressed there and I’m very happy with that.

When sometimes, mind starts to follow someone else’s mentality blindly, it affects how you work too. It could’ve happened to me but I seriously don’t like to do things that has already been done. I mean, what’s the point doing the whole experiment again in exactly the same way provided, when you already have the results? And this sometimes calls for a small push, may be silently. I try to make the person understand my ideas and if one doesn’t, other gets it. That happens most of the time, but when I really get upset with the way the work is done, I demand ask, if it can be done again, the next day, by right method or putting variations to get more reliable and different results. And you know what, it doesn’t look rude since the person thinks that it’s already being done, so one day more, no problem.

That just makes me realize that yes, I’m learning a lot – being patient with people I’m not comfortable with and am never going to, opening up with people (at which I “used to” be very bad), seeing good things in everything (the example is before you) and what not. Ah! You say I could’ve asked my mentor to put me on the team when I wanted it so badly? I seriously don’t know why I didn’t do that. Was I too much hurt when I saw people sitting in some other office of the company, about which I had no idea or is it just my pride (ego? Nah!)? But I decided, if my mentor thinks the project is not suitable for me (not the other way round, mind it!), then it’s alright. I know, she believes in me and that’s why, when during an enquiry to some company, I was asked about my position, she outrightly asked me to write “Process Engineer” when I’m just an intern. These small little things make me very happy and proud. And may be that is the reason that the trust is mutual and I don’t fret over these kind of things.

Has this happened to you? Would you like to share your experience, not just in some company but school or some other place too?

Oh! Should I post some song too? Here, my new fav – 

Hopeless Intern – An Intern to her Boss’s Boss

Hopeless Intern – An Intern to her Boss’s Boss

I, recently came across this blogger (whose name I forgot), whose all entries about his/her internship had headlines as “Hopeless Internship Day #”, something like that until it got over (or it may be going on till now). I laughed to myself. The headline seemed appealing and you indeed are tempted to read what he/she may be going through to give such a name to his/her posts until I came across such situations where I wanted to say that too.

We, interns, sometimes, are looked down upon by the bosses of our bosses, who don’t know our value. We are working for you for much less than we are worth of, often times, doing same jobs as many of the employees do and many a times, better work than them. I’m not degrading the employees nor talking against the bosses. I know it takes time to see the actual effects of the projects we undertake. Moreover, there is a lot of under the surface work, which goes unnoticed. Actually, they won’t even consider that as work but we did it. We put time in it. And it is more apparent in those conditions, where, the bosses are new and unaware of the process of taking interns and their work. Something like this happened to me a while ago, when the company head came for a visit and we were asked to attend a meeting with a future supplier, in which, he was also taking the part.

Obviously, when you suddenly are asked to attend a meeting, with no prior knowledge on the topic, you are bound to remain quiet, just in case you offend the higher-ups sitting there. So, we were just sitting quietly, listening to the conversation, paying attention to the details, so that we might get some of the things, at least, from this advanced stage meeting (this was actually third or fourth one). I must say one thing, these meetings teach you a lot – how the suppliers try to convince you that they are the best, how you talk to them, how you give them details by not so giving them “the” details and what not. For now, it also taught how one creates a pressure on other party and how the other party handles that. I have come to realize that our company is doing so much for us (they let us attend the meeting with suppliers and we are free to, rather encouraged to, ask questions of our own) and we are growing with each and every activity we do here.

That aside, in the end, we were asked to give our input. We were asked what we were working on. And it had been around 15 days from the time we started. We told what we were working on and we were bombarded with a lot of question which were totally out of our field.

My dear boss’s boss,

We are engineers, chemical engineers. I understand we do economic analysis too with the technical details. But that doesn’t mean we have to do market analysis also, that too on everything. That is not our area, you see. It’s not that I’m not ready to learn. I’m eager, you teach me and you’ll see how fast I can do the things. But please don’t expect us to know every field like that.

I do know my roles. But this is real life situation and we have just started. It takes time to understand each and everything of the plant. You want us to know everything well in advance, that’s okay. I know, you are paying for almost every utility for us besides the stipend and I assure you that I won’t disappoint you. But give us some time. We are also humans. I’m sure, in the end you’ll say, it was an excellent deal to bring these kids here. But for now, you must understand that it hurts when we are deemed to be not working or not under proper guidance. Because I feel like, I’m doing bad to my mentor, my boss more than myself.

I also understand very well that, being from a reputed university, we are expected to know everything. Yes, we may know more (sometimes and sometimes not) but that doesn’t mean everything. You need to see that, although it fires me up when you say, we are not doing anything (even when we tell you about the projects we have already completed or are undergoing), but deep inside, it does affect my confidence. At least once in a while, you can appreciate us too. Won’t that be a better boost? Won’t that make me work more, to hear more praise?

I’m really grateful to have this opportunity to work for this particular company, I swear. I love everything here. But please, could you please, just read this once and try, just try, no, just think over it and implement some of the things? I shall be really very very thankful to you.

Oh, and this is from me only, my boss is not involved in it, I assure you. Please don’t say anything to her. Thank you, once again.

Yours sincerely,
The Intern

So Fast!!

So Fast!!

I love it when people answer me as soon as possible. Right now I’m facing both the extremes. I have been waiting for an answer to one of my queries for quite sometime now and I don’t want to call the people. I check my mail several times everyday, if they have sent some reply, but in vain. For the first mail, they responded so fast that I thought, may be, we might be able to establish good relations with this company. And if that happens, it would be a great achievement for me as an intern. I’m seeing the whole matter after all. I even sent a reminder email but I don’t know if I am doing something wrong.

On the other hand, after I talked to 케쓰 yesterday, I finally sent the mail to PEGASUS society for my lessons. And I got the reply within hours! And yesterday night, I was added to the group, received all the files and now I have started doing my homework too! (And it indeed is interesting, I must add. I’m lovin’ it.)

Ah! That reminds me, I don’t have much time to complete my homework. I have got a big heap of work at the company. On the top of that, I have got a two days trip planned for the coming holiday on 12th August in Thailand. So much to do!!! And a lots of catching up! So less time!!

But truly, I’m very thankful that I could join the group of Korean Enthusiasts like me and I’m looking forward to learning a lot. Oh! And thank you 케쓰 for advising me, otherwise I would have remained in dilemma for the whole time 🙂

On the side note, I have been slacking in posting reviews and all since I’m finding myself really busy with work and dramas. And on holidays, we generally go out because I have received my insurance. Now I have to compensate for all those weekends when I couldn’t go out for sightseeing 😛

In the end, today’s song is – 

What Am I Doing?

What Am I Doing?

So yesterday, I didn’t have much work at the company, so I took out time to search about internships. What other resource better than wordpress? Alright, I just wanted to see what other’s experiences are and if possible, some opportunities, may be? That’s because, I had been discovering a lot of things here recently (like lucky draws and online free classes). So I thought, may be, may be, I’ll get to see some posts with internship opportunities?

That aside, I did get a lot of posts about people’s recent intern experiences and it was, seriously, fun to read them. A lot of them also told about things like what you can gain, how it helps your resume, and that today’s trend is shifting to hiring interns in the same company from doing job interviews to hire freshers. As I was reading various stories, only one thought was coming to my mind – “what am I doing?” I know I’m doing my training too (which actually can’t be called internship) and I do get a lot of time after and before that. But time is flying so fast. Almost a month has been finished and I haven’t been able to start what I had in my mind.

I have a lot of things I want to learn and do in my life, and I’m sure everybody has. But I keep realizing every now and then, that I’m not doing enough for it. Sure there are circumstances sometimes (in my case most of the times, but that may, as well, be an excuse) but one has to work hard. Every morning, I wake up with the thought, that I have to do something, something substantial so that when I go to bed and analyse my day, I can have that satisfaction, that yes, I achieved something today. But no. All I keep doing is watching K-Dramas whenever I get unrestricted net (i.e. out of the company). Sigh!

Oh! That reminds me, I was watching ‘We Got Married’ Khuntoria Couple. That couple has been the only one till now, which felt real real. I just love their chemistry. I know, it’s a thing of past. To tell you the truth, I have been against this show and even though, I watch it, I still am. I started this show with TeukSo couple. I know I am gonna cry I reach on the end for this couple. Now-a-days, it totally looks acting. But it still is cruel.

You make a pair and have them act as husband-wife for, don’t know, how much time. Isn’t it obvious, people can develop real feeling? Alright, they are professionals. I understand. But what I see is, the idols are, generally, not allowed to date (not that they don’t but still). And suddenly, they (some of them) get opportunity to share their life with another person (don’t tell me they share their life with their fans too, I know that but realize, it’s much more with that person). They do events for each other, even during concerts; preparing food, one house (though it’s only one day per week), going on vacations, meeting each other’s family and friends and even wedding photoshoots. And, after a year or so, they are asked to break up just like that. It’s so heart breaking for people like me, how would it be for them?

Khuntoria Couple
Khuntoria Couple

For those, who don’t know what “We Got Married” is, it is a South Korean reality show, where they make a guy from entertainment industry marry (not literally) a girl from the industry. They take interviews of idols and then based on their answers, choose the partners. The couple is not told about their partners and the first meeting is to know who that person is. The starting is always heart racing (I mean for the couples for whom I have seen the show). How will they react, what will they do, everything makes, at least, my heart, flutter. Then they start their new life, meeting each other once every week for filming weekly episode. For first few episodes, they get to know each other. Then they get a home for themselves (now they have something called WGM village where the pair gets home right away). There are members’ episodes too in between, if any one of them is in some group. They do activities and complete missions given by WGM team. it’s a lot fun, really. If you start once, you can’t stop, especially if the whole series has been aired. And you know what? The episodes are available with english subs with respective couples only in them. That means, if there are three couples at a time and you are interested in one only, you’ll get the episodes for them separately. The last part is their divorce, where they are just told to dissolve the marriage (which is why I dread starting it whenever I find that someone from my favorite group has been there). That’s all there is, to it.

What? You are saying I’m crazy, ranting for no reason?  Oh really? Then tell me, people make such big deal out of actors and actresses who film a drama together, which is generally 4-6 months? And, they have to be a different character. Here, they have to act as themselves (the irony!) and that too, for around a year or more than that (leave the exceptions). From a normal human being’s perspective (I’m not saying I’m normal but yes, I’m talking about me), I find it too painful. If I keep myself in their situation, I don’t think I would be able to bear it. So, people out there, who are working hard to entertain us, please don’t play with their hearts, even if it is for entertainment of some people. Ah! I again come to the point where I say, they are human beings also. No such post of mine goes without this line.

Huff! I’m tired after so much jabbering. So, I’ll take my leave for now and focus on my problem stated above. I’ll try to ‘try hard’ :P.

On the side note, I have been given the name of Japanese here in Thailand too. I just can’t escape the status can I?

Right now, I’m listening to f(x) (you can tell by mention of ‘khuntoria’ above), so, I’ll post this song today –