I love it when people answer me as soon as possible. Right now I’m facing both the extremes. I have been waiting for an answer to one of my queries for quite sometime now and I don’t want to call the people. I check my mail several times everyday, if they have sent some reply, but in vain. For the first mail, they responded so fast that I thought, may be, we might be able to establish good relations with this company. And if that happens, it would be a great achievement for me as an intern. I’m seeing the whole matter after all. I even sent a reminder email but I don’t know if I am doing something wrong.
On the other hand, after I talked to 케쓰 yesterday, I finally sent the mail to PEGASUS society for my lessons. And I got the reply within hours! And yesterday night, I was added to the group, received all the files and now I have started doing my homework too! (And it indeed is interesting, I must add. I’m lovin’ it.)
Ah! That reminds me, I don’t have much time to complete my homework. I have got a big heap of work at the company. On the top of that, I have got a two days trip planned for the coming holiday on 12th August in Thailand. So much to do!!! And a lots of catching up! So less time!!
But truly, I’m very thankful that I could join the group of Korean Enthusiasts like me and I’m looking forward to learning a lot. Oh! And thank you 케쓰 for advising me, otherwise I would have remained in dilemma for the whole time 🙂
On the side note, I have been slacking in posting reviews and all since I’m finding myself really busy with work and dramas. And on holidays, we generally go out because I have received my insurance. Now I have to compensate for all those weekends when I couldn’t go out for sightseeing 😛
So, recently I have been coming across a lot about the pair Lee Jong Suk and Kim Woo Bin, their old friendship, their “Bromance” and what not, so I decided to watch School 2013 casting both of them and all the previous shows (anime included) which I have watched till now which focus on students’ problems ran through my mind. This time I’m not here to do a review of School 2013 or any of the dramas I’ve tagged here, as a matter of fact. But will just do my usual rambling on the issues these dramas raise. So if you are here to know more about the dramas, I’m warning you, you won’t find any specific information.
First let me list out the dramas and anime I’m going to talk about – School 2013, Dream High, God of Study, Great Teacher Onizuka (also called GTO is j-drama, a movie as well as anime) Gokusen and I My Me Strawberry Eggs. I may have watched more too but right now these are the only names I remember. My first drama related to this genre was GTO, a J-drama in which the teacher is an ex-delinquent. At that time I thought, “Yeah. Alright. They made something good. At least someone thinks about students.” The God of Study totally blew me away. It basically teaches you how to deal with stress and is great for learning techniques in the rote learning environment of South Korea. The way they used to do their study sessions was amazing. It inspired me a lot too. (I kept it for almost one year in my laptop but due to space problems I had to delete it). Dream High shows a different aspect. It basically goes around an art school called Kirin High where they not only focus on studies but is especially for students who want to go out of the way to become artists, more in the field of entertainment. Gokusen has waaay too much similarities with GTO and the plot of School 2013 has been spun around the same theme but includes teachers’ problems also (and the teachers are not former delinquents, at least one of them). I my me is a cute anime with basic story of love between a student and a teacher but it focuses on interclass fightings and stress related to it also.
So basically they talk about the following problems:
Children have a lot of stress due to competition they have to face in near future and the course structures followed in the respective countries.
On the top of that, parents don’t back off without giving them more stress and keep involving in their matters unnecessarily.
Rich parents not only put extra pressure and force their choices over their children, just to maintain their reputation in society, they even interfere in school administration and try to manipulate the policies according to their wishes.
Children want to share their pain with someone but don’t have enough courage.
Ultimately, kids give in to stress and this leads to them attempting suicide and such extreme measures or bad habits and generally they belong to what you call ‘the cream layer’ (and that is a fact)
There may be more points (add them in comments if you want) but these are the major problems I find. First two points are valid for most of the cases in India as well and I assume in other countries too. About third point I don’t know much because neither I have seen such associations involving such parents in my school, nor my parents are rich to do such things. Though, may be, the so called “rich” parents do such things since society has been divided ike that and powerful people do tend to misuse their powers but I don’t have any recollection of such incidents in my time (my memory is short lived, you see). Again, who has gone to school and not gone through the period in fourth point? We have heard a lot about fact in fifth point but in India, more suicides occur due to other reasons other than related to studies, at least in school.
Now coming to the points, it’s true, we have a lot of competition. Everybody is working hard, so much, that you feel depressed if you are left behind in your friends’ circle (You don’t? Don’t kid me. I know it happens, just takes time to realize). I used to cry over this thing. When I joined my coaching (like prep school) for engineering entrance exams, I couldn’t catch up because there were children from other schools also and they were really talented and hardworking. I, on the other hand, had first time stepped out in the world like this (I never took any extra tuition before my 11th grade). I wasn’t good till the end but I did it in real exams though. So, I used to literally cry over my marks in weekly tests because I didn’t stand anywhere in handful of students, how could I compete against lacs of students sitting for the exam every year? But I kept working and did alright, actually better than some of the people who were sure shot successes in coaching institutes. I’m not trying to brag, this time seriously, just that it all comes to how you perform in real life situation. The major thing I came to realize was that after you have learnt whatever you could and applied to problems, in the end, your patience and ability to concentrate in tense atmospheres come into play. Every one learns the same things and everybody has got the same brain (with exceptions, no offence though). Hardwork does matter and so do a lot of other factors.
Parents will never stop worrying and you can’t do anything about it. True, it’s bad when parents try to impose their opinions. I have seen many cases before my eyes, where parents forced their children to take engineering or medical studies, their kids failed and had to ultimately migrate to other streams. First they should see their child’s mind and will to study. just to keep their head high in society, they shouldn’t make their child suffer. And it’s not like other professions are bad. You can earn more than an engineer by being a good professor in some very common subject too (I’m going to be an engineer soon too, so don’t take it other wise if you already are or are studying engineering). But you know what? Parents act based on what they hear. It’s basically the lack of knowledge. They come across only popular things. So if you try to calmly tell your wishes with good examples, may be they will try to understand. In my case, even I didn’t have any knowledge about things so I blindly followed what others were doing. Now, I think otherwise but I can’t do anything about that. But, perhaps, my parents will be more understanding in my sibling’s case and I’m going to fully support her.
Now, talking about sharing problems, my opinion is, competition does change people. In India, till now, there wasn’t any trend of counselling and all in schools. Nor there are things like homerooms or self study sessions (Exceptions are always there. As a matter of fact, many schools are adopting these things but even so, school hours are not that long). So the relationship between students and teachers is more formal here. All we had were our peers and they too, sometimes cut off themselves from you. Then, you have to live alone. All you can do is either endure and make the emotions your driving force to reach your goal or just cry silently in one corner of your room when you know no one is coming. But if you have someone to talk to, sure do. It will help release a lot of things which can adversely affect you and help you calm down. That person is not necessary to be your teacher, your siblings, parents, cousins (and tell you what, even your pet, a non living sculpture and if you believe, then God too) will do. Just vent it out.
As for suicide, I would just say, it’s cowardice. Running away from problems and throwing away your life for no reason is bad, real bad. I mean, at most what will happen? People will insult you, will call you names and you will be embarrassed. What I feel is, more people commit suicide because of the fear of society’s thinking towards them. They are not who make your life, you are……… Ah! What am I doing preaching here? Anyways, it’s hard for everyone. And this is what these dramas show.
Ahhhh!! My eyes are hurting now after sitting for whole day on my laptop. I think I’ll stop here for today.
Here are the links if you want to try any of the above mentioned series –
So yesterday, I didn’t have much work at the company, so I took out time to search about internships. What other resource better than wordpress? Alright, I just wanted to see what other’s experiences are and if possible, some opportunities, may be? That’s because, I had been discovering a lot of things here recently (like lucky draws and online free classes). So I thought, may be, may be, I’ll get to see some posts with internship opportunities?
That aside, I did get a lot of posts about people’s recent intern experiences and it was, seriously, fun to read them. A lot of them also told about things like what you can gain, how it helps your resume, and that today’s trend is shifting to hiring interns in the same company from doing job interviews to hire freshers. As I was reading various stories, only one thought was coming to my mind – “what am I doing?” I know I’m doing my training too (which actually can’t be called internship) and I do get a lot of time after and before that. But time is flying so fast. Almost a month has been finished and I haven’t been able to start what I had in my mind.
I have a lot of things I want to learn and do in my life, and I’m sure everybody has. But I keep realizing every now and then, that I’m not doing enough for it. Sure there are circumstances sometimes (in my case most of the times, but that may, as well, be an excuse) but one has to work hard. Every morning, I wake up with the thought, that I have to do something, something substantial so that when I go to bed and analyse my day, I can have that satisfaction, that yes, I achieved something today. But no. All I keep doing is watching K-Dramas whenever I get unrestricted net (i.e. out of the company). Sigh!
Oh! That reminds me, I was watching ‘We Got Married’ Khuntoria Couple. That couple has been the only one till now, which felt real real. I just love their chemistry. I know, it’s a thing of past. To tell you the truth, I have been against this show and even though, I watch it, I still am. I started this show with TeukSo couple. I know I am gonna cry I reach on the end for this couple. Now-a-days, it totally looks acting. But it still is cruel.
You make a pair and have them act as husband-wife for, don’t know, how much time. Isn’t it obvious, people can develop real feeling? Alright, they are professionals. I understand. But what I see is, the idols are, generally, not allowed to date (not that they don’t but still). And suddenly, they (some of them) get opportunity to share their life with another person (don’t tell me they share their life with their fans too, I know that but realize, it’s much more with that person). They do events for each other, even during concerts; preparing food, one house (though it’s only one day per week), going on vacations, meeting each other’s family and friends and even wedding photoshoots. And, after a year or so, they are asked to break up just like that. It’s so heart breaking for people like me, how would it be for them?
Khuntoria Couple
For those, who don’t know what “We Got Married” is, it is a South Korean reality show, where they make a guy from entertainment industry marry (not literally) a girl from the industry. They take interviews of idols and then based on their answers, choose the partners. The couple is not told about their partners and the first meeting is to know who that person is. The starting is always heart racing (I mean for the couples for whom I have seen the show). How will they react, what will they do, everything makes, at least, my heart, flutter. Then they start their new life, meeting each other once every week for filming weekly episode. For first few episodes, they get to know each other. Then they get a home for themselves (now they have something called WGM village where the pair gets home right away). There are members’ episodes too in between, if any one of them is in some group. They do activities and complete missions given by WGM team. it’s a lot fun, really. If you start once, you can’t stop, especially if the whole series has been aired. And you know what? The episodes are available with english subs with respective couples only in them. That means, if there are three couples at a time and you are interested in one only, you’ll get the episodes for them separately. The last part is their divorce, where they are just told to dissolve the marriage (which is why I dread starting it whenever I find that someone from my favorite group has been there). That’s all there is, to it.
What? You are saying I’m crazy, ranting for no reason? Oh really? Then tell me, people make such big deal out of actors and actresses who film a drama together, which is generally 4-6 months? And, they have to be a different character. Here, they have to act as themselves (the irony!) and that too, for around a year or more than that (leave the exceptions). From a normal human being’s perspective (I’m not saying I’m normal but yes, I’m talking about me), I find it too painful. If I keep myself in their situation, I don’t think I would be able to bear it. So, people out there, who are working hard to entertain us, please don’t play with their hearts, even if it is for entertainment of some people. Ah! I again come to the point where I say, they are human beings also. No such post of mine goes without this line.
Huff! I’m tired after so much jabbering. So, I’ll take my leave for now and focus on my problem stated above. I’ll try to ‘try hard’ :P.
On the side note, I have been given the name of Japanese here in Thailand too. I just can’t escape the status can I?
Right now, I’m listening to f(x) (you can tell by mention of ‘khuntoria’ above), so, I’ll post this song today –
I have been stalling blog posting seeing my blog’s hits jumping everyday. But that’s due to one dramacrazy post only and that is not fair. Not that I’m not happy but at least see other things too.
I have prepared a lot of posts already which need some work, and for that, I’m not finding time.
On other note, I have shifted to other accommodation from the flat I was living in earlier. The flat was too big for me and now this one bedroom home is suiting me a lot. It has got everything I wanted.
So, in this post, I’ll tell you about some customs followed in Thailand which I’ve learnt till now. Before coming here, I read a lot about dos and don’ts in Thailand on web. Being a girl, you have to take care of clothes too. Anything can offend the people of other cultures. So what I read about clothes were these – Try not to wear sleeveless. If you wear one, keep something to cover the upper portion with you, especially when going to temples. Then, Thai people don’t like girls to expose their legs, even a little bit. There were other many things which I’ll keep comparing with what I’ve actually seen (if I remember some).
So first of all, don’t point your feet towards anything, ever. I don’t exactly know the logic behind this but you can’t even sit on chair with your one leg over the other one, a sitting position which Indians like a lot. And trust me, this one is quite difficult (at least for me). About this, I was informed on the very first day when I met the coordinator of our training programme. I even noticed it on TV. Digimon’s last season – Xros Wars was going on (it was Thai dubbed) and whenever there was a kick, they would blur the feet part. It seems that they consider it very rude and insulting.
Next is, never ever keep your hand over someone’s head especially elder people. They take it as you challenging their brain or something like that. This is a total no no.
These were the only two things which we were warned about. Now about clothes, not only they have no problem with girls wearing shorts or half pants, Thai girls themselves wear such clothes. I haven’t gone out much, only one place. But there too, I saw girls wearing quite short length shorts or whatever they are called (excuse my lack of knowledge in this field, please). Yeah, you shouldn’t wear skirts, they offend them but even then, no one would say anything to you. Temples may be a bit stricter in this regard. You need something to cover your upper part if you have tank tops or tops with very thin straps (although definition for “thin” varies for everyone, but I guess, you got the idea). And for lower part, anything above knees is not allowed in the temples, that’s what I have heard (no, I asked my Thai mentor about it). I don’t know anything about socks (if you read some weird thing about people not being fond of socks). Yesterday, we went to two different Buddha temples where me as well as some Thai girls were wearing socks (obviously, we went directly from the company and we have to wear safety shoes). It was a new experience too.
Well today is Sunday and we are not going out anywhere, so I’m thinking of completing my pending works. I sooo wanted to go out but we haven’t received our insurance. Not that I can’t go without it but our sir is very particular about it. He doesn’t want to take any risk and it actually is alright. I would be able to relax and watch some more dramas.
And I’m into rock right now and liking this song very much –
Then I shall take my leave for today. See you soon!
Although I love anonymity but I finally told my roommate about my blog, today. She was so impressed by it that she became senti, and has read all the posts in one day(I know, I’m amazing. Thank you Thank you).
She has seen me grow from my first year (This was one of her lines in today’s chat with her) and I have seen her too (Alright, I accept. The change in me was way bigger). So I’m gonna bitch about her today (Ooh, I was dying to do so).
In our college, in first year, students get double rooms. We are both from the same region so we should have been fine with each other. But as I mentioned earlier, I am a socially inert person and like to be alone and work alone. Last two years before entering my college, I had worked alone only – my study room was my whole world. In the college, it took me two years to open up with people around and I think this hurt her the most. I talked very less to her. I had an inferior complex and she used to talk to other people more. (Okay, I am not making excuses and I am coming to my mistakes too!). And she and my other current friends seemed to be from a totally different world (Even now, when my sister sees my pics with my friends, she says I look like a country bumpkin T_T and here I thought I had changed for good). They had different habits, different styles and a lot of knowledge about worldly ways (which I didn’t have “initially”). And her habit of reading out loud! That I can never forget. Although I could never say to her, even after her asking me again and again, I did have problem with that. And that sometimes enraged me so much that I would go in the room of some other girls I had made friends with, at that time. How sad would that have made her. Oh God, how much did I make her suffer? Now, when I am writing this, I am realizing.
My biggest mistake was I didn’t even try to talk it out. I am one of those who keep things inside until it becomes a volcano ready to be erupted at any time, any place on anyone. But now I have been given a chance, I apologize for that. I don’t think, I would be able to tell you this directly, ever (And no discussions on this after whenever you read this, alright? It’s embarrassing!)
And then come the good days. The things I learnt from my friends, she has the biggest part in that – from about boys and boyfriends to curse words (and things which can’t be told 😛). Her influence totally changed me. She was the one, with two others in my circle who took me to the beauty salon, for the first time in my life, for things other than haircut, in my third year of college (Yes, third year OF COLLEGE, that too was almost end of it) verrrrry forcefully, since I am not particularly interested in make-ups and all. I don’t think I would have even given it a second thought if they hadn’t been with me (This is really becoming something but now I have started confessing then let’s see it through the end).
What else? Ah! She knows every habit of mine. She never, even once, complained about my love for East Asia. Rather she helped it grow. She had to bear with the Japanese songs (She even learnt some lyrics including OSTs of Cardcaptor Sakura 😛) and anime all the time. If she had stopped me at that time, I don’t think I would have discovered my real passion for east Asia. She knows the secrets even my sister doesn’t know (not that I have that many butyou do need that one person in your lifeapart from your sibling and boy/girlfriend). And “boyfriend” reminds me, she desperately wants me to have a boyfriend. She still keeps asking me, if I have made one yet. (Haha! That is never gonna happen my darling.)
This post, I dedicate to my bestie. I know you’re reading this (Obviously, I’m the one who gave you the link). In the end, I would only like to say thank you for being in my life.
Hey all,
It’s been a while since I have posted something. I was busy shopping and packing for Thailand. Now I have finally reached here and I am sooooo very happy. Obviously, it’s south EAST ASIA (nevermind south, “east” is enough for me 😉)
It doesn’t feel like a foreign country. There are a lot of Indian families here. Language is becoming a little problem though, the English pronunciation of Thai people is very different. But they all are very nice and are teaching me the language. Today only, I got a lot of homework for my language lessons. To tell you the truth, even if I know the phrases very well, it’s still awkward, somehow, to greet them in their language. But they are very supporting in this regard. When I speak some phrase, they laugh, get elated on my attempt and then correct me. It’s a fun procedure – not to dig into internet or mobile apps but rather learn from native speakers. Ah! My lifelong dream is coming true!
My trainer is very enthusiastic and sweet lady and is very excited to have us (me and one other batchmate) as trainees under her. Also, I am the first girl from our college here. Hehe, feels so great!
So, they have provided me with a nice accommodation, a fully furnished flat just for me (I may have roommates in future but right now it’s only mine, MINE!). There is an AC car to take us everyday to and fro (till now. Soon we’ll get our cycles and that’s good since I don’t like special treatments). And, there is proper veg Indian food (lucky no?). But with facilities comes responsibility (Is that even a quote?) – responsibility of behaving properly (I am very good at that) and excelling at work. That means, even if I screwed up my acads, I have to perform well here (oh well, this is only chance left to increase my CGPA).
The most amusing thing is that even if I am a shy person I am trying to communicate with people (Thai only, I still can’t bring myself to talk to seniors, oops, they are my batchmates only, from India. I keep repeating in my head what to say but by the time I gather courage to speak, they are nowhere to be found!). Even so, I am surprising myself!
Oh! Oh! And the awesome internet speed! The speed which my laptop shows here is 1GBps! I told my friends and they were like “OMG” and “Holy Shit!” (In India the speed shown is 100MBps and it’s far lower than that). I wonder when I go back to India, if I’ll keep cursing the Indian speeds. Now my only two problems are:
– Where is the dustbin?
– Windows 8, why did you take this awesome thing called wi-fi from my laptop away? Now the only choice left for me is to access net on my phone TT_TT . But these are solvable (Phew!)
And the two things I am excited about are:
-K-pop concerts (if any happens during my stay here and the ticket is within my limits)
-AnimeCons ( I hope I get enough info on time)
I’ll keep posting about my stay here at Thailand and show you places where I’ll go (I’m not trying to turn this into a travel blog but I would like to show you Thailand from my perspective). A lot of pics are on their way……
I think I have written enough for now. Recommendations about concerts, conventions and places, which are a must see but not mentioned in books and not known by many people, are most welcome.
See you soon with another story!
PS – Pardon the mistakes, I am posting this from my phone.
Edit: 06 July 2013 : Alright, I got net in my laptop for the first time in about 2 months. And because I’m happy, I’ll post this happy happy song :
I did say in my first story, how due to envy, I got introduced to languages. But waaaay before that, I had had some exposure to a lot of languages, not foreign though. Being in an English medium school, you have to learn English from the start. Then obviously you know your mother tongue. In India, there is vast diversity in terms of culture, people and languages. If your father is in a job where he and the family have to move a lot, you do get a lot of experience, meet new people, make new friends and learn how to adjust. In different regions, you get to learn a different language. In my case, I got to learn one in my 3rd class (which would probably be Grade 3rd of Elementary School in East Asian countries) because my father got transferred to a new region. Then, generally, in north India (I don’t know about other regions and there may be variations in this region as well! It depends!) you are given a choice between 2 languages – Sanskrit, which is considered to be mother of all languages and the one which I learnt before in my 3rd grade. So I chose Sanskrit (and did really well too! Thank you, thank you). So now four languages were added to my account – English, Hindi, Sanskrit and last one Punjabi (this one belongs to the state called Punjab).
In my 10th class (this will be !st year of high school in East Asia) I started with Japanese but I only had one small book. I never had a look on the kana charts earlier in my life. In those days, internet used to be a rare commodity, so I didn’t have it. The kana charts given in the book looked suspicious. Some syllables in the end were missing (which was because they didn’t exist but hey, I didn’t know that!). And it was only a phrases book and I wanted to start from the basic. But even so, my curiosity wasn’t gratified. Nonetheless, I copied it in hopes of learning a new language and did learn some words but 10th class, here, is a major class. I couldn’t give my new found “hobby” enough time. Next two years are the most important from career making point of view. Preparing for various entrance exams for getting admission in the best colleges takes hard work of your two years. Can’t even think of other activities. Before college admissions, I did get time and took up French. Learnt some. But again there was no proper guidance. I never got to understand how to start things. Vastness of material available on net confuses you more.
Then college life started. And here I got to see different kinds of stuff. Travel books basically give you phrases which will be useful while roaming around in the concerned country. Phrase books include some more, related to daily life. Then there are grammar books. But they seem so high leveled sometimes that you want to give up. There are a lot of websites, books telling you how to learn a language, other kind of books, audio lessons, youtube tutorials etc. etc. And if you get into the trap of watching dramas and movies of the language you wanna learn, with the desire to grasp something in an entertaining way, then my friends, you get deviated from your goal. Trust me, I’m one of them.
In the next post, find out the answer I came up with for all my troubles.
Alright. It’s been so long (yeah yeah, 2 weeks without net is ages for me!) When I reach my home, my only worry is when I will get internet. I keep asking my parents but being a daughter of a government official means transfers and shifting houses. You come back from college after 3 months or more and BOOM! A new place, new house, new environment, new neighbors, new room and of course, no internet (it takes time in India for almost everything if you don’t know how are things done here) Surfing net on handphone is cumbersome for me. Yeah, sure there are cyber cafes but who wants to go out in scorching 45 deg C.
Anyways, today I’m visiting my relatives and got a chance, so I’m writing. Don’t know when will get next opportunity, better do all the important pending work.
Most awesome thing that happened to me related to East Asia this summer is that my 6 months training (I mentioned it in my post earlier, check here) is now in Thailand and I’m so so happy. I was very worried about my passport and stuff but it seems (yeah “seems”) to be solved now (Hope I get things done and get my passport soon). But the best thing I came to know about was the Japanese cosplay and anime conventions. I can finally start my manga collection and, for the first time in my life, see real cosplayers.
Not to mention, K-pop concerts! At least SME idols do concerts there, that much I know. Don’t know about other companies and don’t know about their schedule but it doesn’t take anything to be happy in dreams. I just hope that everything goes fine and I’m able to at least reach there. Rest will be planned after landing. If you wanna suggest something for my visit, ideas are welcome.
Now it’s time to bid goodbye to internet.
Here is another one of my favorites (and now my sister’s who doesn’t listen to any other Korean song but this one)
Yesterday, when my videos stopped working, I thought it was a move by my college due to sem end exams. Turns out, it is my laptop giving me problems. Flash player suddenly stops working! Wah! (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻
Its like being alive without my soul (#×_×). I can’t watch any drama or music videos. Me, the one who finds excuses such as “I’ll watch just (just) one episode after finishing this chapter (though it never stops at only one episode hehehe)” or “I have done a lot of work, now time to watch (where a lot of work refers to reading one page absent-mindedly)”, just to watch one more episode of my favorite variety shows like Kiss the Radio, Intimate note, Strong heart etc. etc. (list is very very verrrry long!) or currently going on dramas like Gu Family Book (awesome show with Lee Seung Gi in there (≧∇≦)/), can’t watch anything. (T_T) No shows for today and God knows for how many days! (TT_TT)
I have tried everything to fix it (and everything means everything but that’s another story). I have another exam tomorrow but I haven’t started preparation yet. Why? Because I was trying to find a solution to the problem. This is too much! I give up! (;´Д`)
So, I have been watching the MVs I have with me, downloaded, again and again. And this song makes me a little relieved of my frustration (Coz I can’t watch the video, I hope this is the right one.) That guitar and the guitarist and the slow motions……. （〜^∇^)〜
Ok. I did say I would write a review but as soon as I start preparing, I watch something else and then I move on to the new thing and the cycle continues. So I have not been able to do any. Moreover, I find writing my everyday experiences easier and more interesting. My semester exams are also near so I haven’t been able to focus on anything (including THE EXAMS! God!! I am screwed!!!)
So I had been preparing an animation movie to send to companies for internship for past one month or so. I missed a lot of tests and assignments for that but I don’t regret it because I was happy doing the work. In my college, BITS Pilani, it is compulsory to do training for one semester and mine comes next sem. The companies are arranged by the institute only, but through some procedures you can change that. I had my mind set on doing my training in an animation company, so I prepared a video. But it didn’t turn out how I wanted it to be. Of course, it was my first attempt and some of my friends have praised it a lot but I myself am not satisfied with it. How will other people be?
Recently, I got to talk, heart to heart, with a long lost friend of mine. She was having similar problems as me like losing interest in her own discipline, wanting to explore other areas etc. etc. Well, I am one those few, who chose their own discipline. In India, it’s difficult to get your own choice of trade when you get a rank which lies in middle – not too high but not too low either. I left a lot of good colleges just to get chemical engineering at this prestigious institute. Now I have come to realize that this is not my cup of tea. We talked for one hour or so. And she advised me a lot of things like how I can improve in the given time for my training, by joining some courses while sticking to my discipline. I can think through my options too. And I was like “what was I doing?” I directly wanted to jump to a different field without any background. Just wanted to do it. She totally changed the direction in which I was thinking. Then again, she told me to talk to some seniors. As I am an introvert, I don’t have many contacts. But her advice was enough for me to take some big decisions of my life. This post, I dedicate to that friend. Thank you very much for helping me clear my mind (a 90 degrees bow to you).
Yes, I have a habit of solving problems myself. I don’t tell people my concerns and like to keep things to myself. But sometimes, when you don’t know what to do, where to head, telling your worries to a friend or even a stranger works wonders. Yes, talking helps!
PS: Another song, this time its from SS501. I have been randomly listening to various South Korean groups and stumbled upon this song just yesterday :
Yeah, yeah. The title seems like I was going to commit suicide. My depression was not that bad but those times were not very good either. My grades were dropping despite me studying (I think I was studying but God only knows!). I was feeling out of the group because I didn’t join any club or department (being an introvert) and my hobbies were different from the friends I had made, so I couldn’t talk to them too. There were no common topics for us. All in all, I was very lonely (Don’t take it in wrong way!) I used to sometimes think if I was not fit for this place or how much better it would have been if I was born in some anime world.
Then one day, I stumbled upon K-Dramas. Now, if you are talking about K-Dramas, I have watched only two kinds – RomCom and Historical. My first drama was Dae Jang Geum (The Jewel in the Palace), a historical drama, which is about a girl, who becomes head kitchen maid even after being conspired against, by a lot of rivals again and again. After watching it, I was like how can people work hard like that? Just to make some dishes, she would keep awake for whole night. (I can’t have a night out even if I haven’t studied for an exam the next day at all, even today!) After watching some more dramas which were mainly romantic comedies, I realized, modern people are like that too. If you think they are just dramas and they don’t contain reality, then there are real instances too. Like, if you talk about their entertainment industry, the people are very hardworking. They sometimes keep going on without sleeping for days. For example, Super Junior’s 6th album’s title song – Sexy, Free and Single was shot in 3 days where the members didn’t get any sleep and had to keep dancing for long hours. Same thing happened for Girls’ Generation (SNSD)’s song – Gee. Well, yeah that’s something you can’t verify but why would they lie about something like this. You can actually see such things from their makings. Other than music videos, their schedules are very tight – Concerts, Hosting, Acting, Variety Shows and what not. And when you hear such things and actually watch their very well made music videos (even the reality shows videos have a lot of video edits – small small cartoons and gags in writing etc.), you start wondering about hundreds of people behind and besides the entertainers – directors, technical staff, stylists and more who have to put lots of efforts too. Because I can’t do such things, I obviously get impressed. How can such things and people not inspire you?
Another thing which I watch are variety shows and reality shows. The people are too funny. They don’t hesitate to make fun of themselves just to make the audience laugh and it’s the scene in almost all such shows out there in South Korea (Oh man! I have watched too many.)
Now coming to my main point, yes, when I was feeling very low in life, I came across such treasure by chance and I am very thankful for that. Even now when I am feeling even a little bit dispirited, all I need is some variety show episode with my favorite girl/boy groups or their songs. They make my day! (Yes, my day starts and ends with them only) I know you must be pondering how crazy I am. But I am sure; you also must have some songs like that in your life (not necessarily Korean).
With that I’ll post aforementioned songs today:
PS : From my next post I’ll start with the reviews. Enough with the stories!
Yes, I very am. What? Can’t I like people from that part of the world? People from India do have boyfriends and girlfriends from Western parts of the world.
Anyways, this is one question I face almost everyday. Being a typical Indian girl from middle class family, I am not allowed to have a boyfriend. (I don’t have a problem with that. Is a boyfriend absolute necessity to live this life?) So, when my friends ask me if they should set me up with someone (they even find guys who are anime freak like me, such good friends they are TT_TT ) or if they see me with some guy and start teasing me, I am not left with a choice. The easiest way to tackle the problem is to say “I am not interested in Indian guys. “ Period.
Then they ask what I like about the ones “I’m interested in” and their eyes are so small and blah blah blah. Why? When you can go crazy over actors and singers from American series, why can’t I go wild about people from East? Is it a crime to be a little different in your choice? And what’s with small eyes. Does that even matter?
At first, it just started as a joke but after being asked from a lot of people why I don’t settle in East Asia only, I have seriously started considering the possibility. So let’s just say, “middle class” and “Indian girl” labels – Go To Hell!
That being said, here is another song from Super Junior :
The Joys and Worries of an East Asia Lover 